Passionate in life

Here they come

2012-02-09T10:41:00.002+08:00

My winter vacation has ended. It was a rush and packed schedule. Most of the time i spent on doing revision for the coming exam next sat. However, i didnt actually study much for that while i was at home. Eyes are staring at the book with my heart was flying here and there. Anyway, home is always the best place, which i did not feel much pressure on the exam. Once i came back to taiwan, the stress has flooded in. I feel like i was alone to face the cruelness of reality. I was not tough as everyone thought.
Please let me pass my exam this time, this is the only thing i wish for at the moment

Another last day

2012-01-05T20:33:00.002+08:00

Today just end up with the last day of working at the registration department of school. At first I was quite happy but then after the clock went to 5pm, I started missing everyone there. People there are very nice and helpful, even if i was just a tiny character, they treated me so well. I was seldom scolded, or perhaps i am smart enough for not being so =). Anyway, time really flies this time, I would like to thank everyone there, for your kindness!

學生的最後一天

2011-12-30T15:09:00.002+08:00

這一天終於來到了，身為學生坐在教室裡聽老師上課，這種生活也畫上了句點。今天只有四堂課，兩節必修兩節選修。必修上了蔡尚穎老師的課，課的最後老師播了一段自製的PPT，讓我霎時有了不少的感動。過去這五年半在這學校經歷的點點滴滴如今已成回憶，而我們即將踏入人生的另一段旅程，面對不一樣的事物。真的非常感慨...
謝謝各位老師的指導，謝謝同學們的愛

merry X'mas

2011-12-25T00:12:00.002+08:00

Another year of christmas again, the fifth x'mas i had in taiwan. The most memorable x'mas that i had ever had was the one at OUG. We were at front of aik buey house and played the snow spray together, as if it was snowing. haha. Here comes another x'mas again, after x'mas would be new year, and im gonna getting older again. This year i celebrated with my student and her family. It was very good and a feeling of family.
Wish everyone enjoy their x'mas too!

So alike!

2011-12-14T13:14:00.002+08:00

It is lunch break now, from 12-1pm. I am resting at my room as usual, because the classroom is so near with the place i stay. The session we had on the morning was funny and informative, the most probably was due to the teacher. He is from emergency department, i found out that he looked so alike with a friend i know recently. I think they are around the same age. Anyway, the main similarity between them is not related with the age, but the way they talked and the gesture they had. We have another session later, would be something about gynaecology. Hope everything will be fine later and end as soon as possible!

My weekends

2011-10-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

Since when my weekend becomes so boring here. I would rather stay at the dorm during weekend because i don't want to squeeze with others outside. Weekdays and weekends seemed no different for me as a student =). This makes me would prefer go out hanging on weekdays, where places are more quiet.
Anyway the second reason which i would prefer to stay at the dorm because i want to save money haha. This semester is pretty hard for me as a reason i don't have any part time job which means i have no extra money to spend. Wish i could get the scholarship that i applied recently...
My diet and slimming plan is going practically ..achieved slowly? My kilos is going down but still higher than the time i went back home last 2 months..zzz..Getting weight is just so easy for me..

disappointment

2011-10-04T12:13:00.003+08:00

I watched the list again though i knew the results few months ago. That's one thing proved again, which is "hardship doesn't equal to the outcome". Tears rolled down from my cheeks again. I feel useless and disappointed for myself. People can get such a good result even though they are so busy. Another way to think about it, read the same thing twice again would be good too. At least you are able to memorize them deeply and clearly. Thanks for my parents again for not blaming me.

Should work harder.

tiny little thing

2011-09-28T21:01:00.002+08:00

When your parents are not with you, friends or intimate friend will be the one accompany you to go through everything. I was kind of touched by my classmate who organised a birthday party for me next week.
It seems like nothing for some people, however it means a lot to me. This is so called friendship and valuable memory to me in my life.
Thank you my friends

A great weekend

2011-09-25T21:28:00.002+08:00

When you are overseas, you wish to have someone closer with you, such as boyfriend or family. I am the lucky one because i have a family who treat me so good. She was my student and i was with her today. Her mom is very kind, give me food whenever i go to their house. I am really very lucky, thank you everyone, i will appreciate such a good relationship!

Complications

2011-09-18T19:13:00.002+08:00

A week has gone since i came back. Meet some old friends and talked about the past, then we realized that time passed pretty fast. Somehow i miss the old days, it came out in my dream too. Wonder what it exactly means. I think these memories won't fade until the next one appears to substitute the old one.
I promise i am gonna start doing some readings by tomorrow.

Thanks to my family and friends.

when the day comes

2011-09-04T08:46:00.002+08:00

6 days left and i am going back to face the reality again. It is always good to be at home, free of stress and being treated like a princess(comparing in taiwan -.-). Many things happened in the past two months, the worst was i failed my exam, it was quite disappointed and i can't really take it even if it has been already a month go. I am an optimistic person, so i am not gonna give up of course. The books that i planned to read during this summer break was left on my desk with a layer of dust above, ha. Fine, i want to fully utilized the holidays left here with my family and friends. Other than that, i would just leave it back in taiwan .
When going back again, i know i am gonna start a new life again.

最後一天

2011-07-29T09:15:00.002+08:00

明天就要把這四年學的東西烙印在兩張紙上
沒過的指數直上可是也無可奈何
准考證號碼又不如我意希望我只是想太多

應該要對自己有信心相信自己

好拉反正最壞的打算就是重考不會死人的

加油!

剩兩天

2011-07-28T18:20:00.003+08:00

剛做了一下考古題
錯超多心情很糟

Make a wish

2011-07-24T22:27:00.001+08:00

Please let me pass my coming exam!

救生員的日子#9

2011-05-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

在松山泳池最後第二天今天狀況很不好踩水沒幾下就開始喘了不知道是不是真的要生病了身體比較虛弱
對於深水的恐懼感也漸漸變得沒那麼嚴重了
今天學了潛水的一些知識也學了打樁式入水高空跳水真的很可怕可怕在於空中的那幾秒鐘我的姿勢都很奇怪哈哈不過總算跳了下去 8M高也真的不是每個人能克服的

希望趕快結束好累
但很充實謝謝教練們謝謝大家

救生員的日子#7

2011-05-10T07:47:00.002+08:00

今天終於要挑戰踩不到地的松山運動泳池最低2.5M 最高5M 單聽到水深都已經害怕得不敢下去了@@
可是既然當初決定要參加就不能半途而廢還是硬著頭皮跟拉拉搭車到泳池
下水的那刻 50M的水道游過去真的很累而且又踩不到底整個人都精神緊繃快瘋了
大部分人都很厲害輕鬆的踩水可是我踩沒多久腳就開始累了就會順勢將頭往後仰到最後連我的頸椎也覺得非常累
到學救人的時候我和我的拍檔都做一些休息一下所以有些動作其實也沒練到就有被教練唸了幾句 T^T
最後宵夜時刻游抬頭捷泳真的游到我快死了可以感覺得到手臂開始無力我真弱唉
那時心裡真的有股衝動想要放棄了怎麼辦 .. 堅持下去好了
想辦法克服!!!加油

救生員日子#4

2011-05-05T23:23:00.002+08:00

今天教練教接近法真正學到一些跟救人有關的東西可是對我基礎還不是很穩的人來說這些都是很吃力的
不過還好我的拍檔人都很好跟我配合把動作給完成教練人一樣很好一直糾正我的問題我才發現原來我一直游的自由式踢水都是錯誤的讓我一直浮不起來我得好好的把它給改過來

今天的收穫 : 總於鐮刀式入水法碰到池底了側泳也漸漸有點進步
需改進 : 自由式退步的動作測泳記得背打直手放輕鬆蛙式仰式放輕鬆

謝謝今天所有給予指導的教練們

唸書了加油!

救生員的日子#3

2011-05-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

去了救生員班已經第三天了生理期還沒結束可是還是不管三七二十一下水學游泳
今天教練們教了跳水和徒手潛泳可惜我都做不好一直潛不下去
教練們都很好很耐心的教我只是說我很不爭氣死都沉不下去
很累很累我要加油謝謝教練們我會盡力的

謝謝大家晚安

認真

2011-04-30T23:12:00.002+08:00

其實每每想起自己想要做的事情真的是一羅羅但實際上有達成的又有多少呢
每次說要減到45公斤到了50左右就沒辦法繼續了
說要努力唸書考高分一點結果唸一點就想睡覺了
說要認真做每件事情結果做到一半就不耐煩隨便給它了結算了
說要對父母好結果有時通電話語氣會很不耐煩
說要變漂亮結果變了那麼久還是老樣子
總結還是自己的毅力不夠做事總是三分鐘熱度

希望你好好的對待自己所需下的承諾

bad weather

2011-03-26T13:33:00.002+08:00

Things are just going so unsmooth recently. My laptop was died finally but i havent checked for it what is actually going on because i gotta preparing for my coming exam next mon. Anyway, it wasnt that bad actually at least i have one to use now which i borrow from my senior. The other thing is that the weather is freaking sucks here. It is supposed to be in spring however it turns to be so cold these days which makes me feeling so uncomfortable. My detoxification plan has already started. Today would be the 3rd day, feeling well anyway for this and the kgs on the weighing machine drops =)

Wishing the weather to get better...

For some reasons

2011-03-20T09:54:00.002+08:00

At first i just wanted to do some recording for the classes we had into my ipod so that i can listen it while im going for hiking later. Then i open facebook unconciously and read an article of my tabletennis team senior. He wrote about his feelings in the team through these years. I agreed with him in some ways, the reason that made me stay in the team until now is because of a 情, which i think it connects all of us. My tabletennis doesnt improve that much for i cant even go for a competition. All these years i went to every competitions by seeing and screaming for my teammates. I was always the one who was giving support, but not the one who was given support. Sometimes i feel like giving up, quiting the team. However, i gave up of quiting once the memories that we have been through recall back in my mind. The happiest memory that i have with you guys is probably not the medals we had in competitions, but the moments and feelings that we shard are the most appreciable.

Instead of the skill, you can actually gain a lot of things from the team - quoted from one of the 941 senior

Thank you guys for giving me such a good uni life

self confidence

2011-03-16T21:42:00.001+08:00

i notice that self confidence always comes from the affirmation from others.
Therefore i must work harder to build up my confidence!! Go~

limitation

2011-03-05T17:41:00.002+08:00

Everyone has their limitations. However, i think that limitations can't be an obstacle which holds you on. 1000m swimming looks like so hard to achieve, but i did it too yesterday where i have a bad muscle ache all over my body =.= Anyway, i feel relax after every exercises that i did. Today i have attended a "white coat ceremony" of my seniors and i realized that time passed pretty fast. Remember that day i came to this school and my seniors guided me along in all matters, after few years they are going to the hospitals for clerkship soon. The next year would be my turn, have i ready yet for all this?

pessimistic

2011-02-22T22:09:00.001+08:00

I know i wasnt that pessimistic actually. Somehow i feel hopeless now, perhaps i am too stressed and homesick today.

cheers~ =)

A new semester

2011-02-21T15:05:00.002+08:00

Well, here a new semester has just begun. I was back to my hometown for around 1month and then return to Taipei again yesterday. This situation comes twice every year. However i notice that im still not getting used with it. Whenever i came back from my hometown, i get depressed and down, i wish to stay longer in my hometown. Perhaps the coming years i will have lesser time to go back visit my parents and hence which makes me cannot bare with this situation.
Another thing is, there seems a lot of things to do in this new semester, many of my friends are busy preparing for the exam on July, but i don't know which part i can go through first and this really makes me kinda panic.
Hope that everything will be fine and run on smoothly in this coming year. And my friends, take good care in everywhere you are in. Miss ya!

realization

2011-01-06T20:46:00.002+08:00

When you were in such a situation, then you would clearly understand and feel it. This is what im having right now. The last exam is going to be held on tomorrow, somehow i feel sick and uncomfortable at the moment. I wonder it was due to the "contaminated" water in the swimming pool. I felt uncomfortable since last night after swimming. Terrible bad on my throat and lung. i drink alot of water and ate some vit C, but it seems like useless=.= grrrr i hate getting sick when staying at outside, a place where your family are not around you/
anyway, it's my last subject tomorrow and i wont be giving up that easy!

好煩

2010-12-27T05:25:00.000+08:00

經過這幾天的大吃大喝　胖了２～３公斤
唉　今天開始來個終極大減肥好了　耶！

2010 merry X'mas~

2010-12-26T07:19:00.002+08:00

Another year again, time passed so fast
This was the 4th christmas i had in taiwan so far, and i love this year christmas anyway =)
During the christmas eve, liyu, dodo and I went to Afternoon Tea restaurant having a luxury+expensive teatime together. We talked a lot during the teatime, which there were many things that happened recently and the complications among people on their relationships. At that moment, i noticed and realized that i want to be closer with these 2girls in the tabletennis team!
On the day of Christmas, i planned to have a revision day whole day, however i was dragged to a concert finally =.= It was actually organized by liyu's church. People there are very nice and funny too. I saw the ways they treat liyu, it's warm and touching, i guess she will be happy at there and guess she'll be fine and recover someday in the future.
My concentrations is getting worse recently =.=, whenever reading at the notes, i fall asleep , sigh sigh sigh. My body weight increases somehow probably eating too much recently. Sometimes i wonder that why do i have to suppress my own desire on eating the food that i love. And so the consequence would be the number on weighing machine goes up, with alot of poo poo everyday (feel good~huh)
I guess i have to back to my notes again. Otherwise im gonna be frustrated again for not being on schedule again..
Merry chirstmas to all of U~

a warmth nice teatime

2010-12-15T08:06:00.002+08:00

yesterday 4 of us were going for the tea time at in-house, a restaurant which nearby our school. The four of us including bo cheng, 2 seniors and me. One of the seniors was the main point during this tea time, where we would want to "interview" him about his personal life recently with a junior.
Anyway, i was kinda surprised that the other junior was going too because at first only 3 of us planned to go. However, i was quite happy to see him somehow =). He is actually my type too, a good impression on him! ha.

省思

2010-12-02T17:30:00.002+08:00

看看身邊的同學看看自己我到底在幹嘛
人常說人比人比死人但我說比較下出狀元
大家都那麼傑出優秀自己除了出一張嘴之外脾氣怪一點之外應該也沒什麼了吧
想想還有1年半的時間就要進醫院了醫學方面我懂多少說話技巧我又學會了多少
很失敗很失敗可是我不會放棄

偶爾寫一寫文章激勵自己其實還不錯
我沒有大家那麼聰明可是我相信我的用功和認真還是會有出人頭地的一天

加油向前衝吧

useless

2010-05-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

Everyone has his own personalities, some you can accept while some you feel unacceptable. I do have my own emotion, which makes me feel frustrated sometimes. I want to have all the things settled in organized. In other words, i wish there would be some tiny little improvement on what i am doing now. No efforts, no success. However, it seems that hardship doesn't always balance with the outcome. I am getting worse in playing tabletennis, it makes me so depressed. Well, allow me to apologize to people around me when i got mad. Sorry that i lost my emotion and shouted at you guys.

Depression does exist and it bothers me somehow. Anyway, i will keep working hard and this is what i should do at the moment.

lonely

2010-05-10T17:45:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i feel quite lonely though it seems like i have a lot of friends here. Perhaps it is me trying to avoid from the crowd, and settle everything alone. I think it saves me time, i need to finish all the things scheduled in a short time. I don't have much time to waste by sitting there or hanging around without motive. Consequently, it makes me become more lonely and anti-social. I need some really close friends and family around me to have me recharged. Life is tough and meaningless without you guys...I never feel meaningless for the daily routine repeats everyday in the past days. However, it does happen now. Perhaps i have to take a deep breath and confront every single incident with different thoughts.
Lastly, my english has deproved a alot zzzz, keep forgetting the vocab

Left 44days to go back home! yay!

英靈追思紀念會

2010-03-28T09:31:00.003+08:00

我想我已經很久沒有更新這個部落格了
每當事情的一開始的時候總是覺得很新鮮幹勁十足可是到後來卻膩了
最近又很忙嗎? 的確是蠻忙的一週恐怕也只有週末是比較有空的
有空的時間也要唸書現在只是覺得我需要很多時間去做我的事情去完成很多為完成的事
哪怕有天上天把我叫回去了我這一輩子不就遺憾一堆嗎
對不起我身邊的人我都在獨自的做自己的事看起來很自私似的
但如今我真的自身難保了非常抱歉

前天參加了學校的英靈追思紀念會

當然感觸挺深的
追思大體老師們願意奉獻他們的遺體讓我們去學習人體的結構也感謝家屬們的成全
但想回之前那幾堂課自己到底有沒有認真學習好像沒有只在那裡叫無聊
我想該好好反省一下自己
人生經歷了無數的事情每每發生一件事情之後都會覺得愧疚但實際上立志要改過得也沒有幾個可以辦到
我想那是我該學習的地方
有捨有得應該更努力認真去看待每件事情了
謝謝一路上曾經幫助過我的人感恩身邊曾出現的貴人門

記憶

2010-02-23T19:07:00.003+08:00

記著那段回憶又怎樣?曾經被傷害過的傷口就算癒合了，還是會留下疤痕。每每看到這一道傷疤，心就很痛，痛得我已不想再去記起曾經一起甜蜜的回憶。因為不能逃避，所以寧願選擇忘記，但這是不可能的，要復原還是得靠自己，我能說的都說完了，之後你想要怎樣你自己決定吧

真的很矛盾
算了我還是覺得當朋友的感覺最好至少我不用怕傷害到人

school reopening

2010-02-23T02:02:00.002+08:00

as the title said, school starts, it was the new semester again.. i'm still in Malaysia, thinking what the teachers taught. Anyway, i feel kinda stress, worry i couldnt get used to this new busy contented semester. Isn't this i wanted for since long time ago? Yea, it is. I have to be tough.

welcome, my new semester, it would definitely a beginning to me again.

2010 新年快樂

2010-02-20T14:35:00.002+08:00

大家走了新年就這樣結束了
每一年看見親戚朋友大家都變了
時間過得真快還是喜歡以前大家還是小孩的時候現在想要大家聚在一起的機會更難了
以前一大班小孩一定會玩在一起可是現在都各自有自己的節目有自己的想法和空間了
看看長輩們他們真的老了晚輩的我們也長大了不在像以前圍在一起玩牌了
唉怎麼辦時間一直過好可怕啊~~
我又 23歲了哈
還有兩天就開學了新的學期新的希望新的夢想
這次沒有甚麼藉口和約束把以前錯過的東西全部給追回來
不能再浪費時間了相信大家也有同感吧要做就趕快做因為時間真的不多了

大家要開開心心迎接新的一年耶

Someone

2009-12-28T10:13:00.002+08:00

Perhaps your little fairy is there to take care of you always, and willing to do everything for you.
Why isn't he the one you love?

winter

2009-12-03T10:44:00.002+08:00

It's 15 degree celcius now, i guess. This song reveals my current feeling =)

There are many of us feel that way too, aren't we?

拉拉生日快樂

2009-11-29T02:08:00.003+08:00

首先，先跟我可愛的室友說聲生日快樂!!!耶

我們吃蛋糕，喝白酒，吃鮪魚玉米，感覺真的好開心，能住在一起是一種緣分吧哈

最近真的是太忙了，考試、比賽(雖然我沒上場)，還有一堆有的沒的事情
好想快點結束這個學期，展開下個學期，因為我有很多計畫中的事情，等待著下學期去一一執行
說到比賽，沒上場是一種遺憾，畢竟我都大三了，能打球的日子還有多少，可是我也真的能力有限，上場只會被別人幹掉。有時候我在想，甚麼時候輪到我站在賽場上，大家都為我加油打氣緊張，那種日子有沒有一天會發生?
可是我是不會放棄的，我知道自己能力不足，所以我會更努力，我一定要站在這舞台上，而不是成為下面的支持者
晚上跟媽媽聊天，發現他們真的很辛苦，我應該更加要用功唸書，以後我一定要好好照顧他們，讓他們過好日子

苦盡甘來，勤能補拙，我會努力的耶!

大家也一起努力!!!

Reality vs Fact

2009-11-18T12:49:00.003+08:00

Do we really need to please someone who actually we hate for? In some situation the answer would be a yes. We have no choice in order to have a BRIGHTER SUCCESSFUL future. Of course i wasn't saying myself, I don't understand why there are some people did something exactly different from what they said. And it is really disgusting! Probably they would just love to hang out with some friends who are considered "useful" to you, rather than being friends that sharing joy with you. Fine, it doesn't matter for me, snobbish fellas~

And lastly, i went for a english class yesterday. This is my english teacher, he is from lebanon and only 19 years old ha. I guess i was too nervous that my hand was shaking XD

well, it's nice to talk to him. I mean i can finally get someone to talk in english with me.

It's winter!

2009-11-14T12:49:00.002+08:00

Weather changes, turns to colder. I wonder perhaps it would be great if there was someone holding your freezing hands. XD Anyway, it just so boring now. I don't feel like studying now as i have been sticking with my desk for few days, struggling for the nerves that are coming up in the test paper on Monday. It's just so good if i was in home, at least i can watch TV, or play with my nephew and lots things to do. 2 weeks i have been single again, i guess im slowly getting used with it. Time heals everything.

Suddenly remind me of this song, share with you guys.

Mistakes and Fate

2009-11-06T14:31:00.002+08:00

Recently i saw a quote from Sex and the city
" Have you ever made mistakes and lost the fate?" It looks so familiar with my situition before. But i really hope that chances will be given for another try, at least im not giving up easily. But somehow the situation is different if you are not even given a chance to change something. I have shifted the "concentration" from him to my friends. It's another change of my life, a new adaption on it. Sometimes i couldnt help but wonder, can a broke up couples be friends again? I was the one suggested to be friend again, but i can't really make it at the moment. Perhaps i need more time to have the wound healed. Anyway, scar is still there. I didn't cry for him because my tears worth nothing for him. He doesn't care anymore. We didn't talk to each other for a week. Is it better for us to be friends at the beginning? Perhaps none of us is hurt so badly now. And this is life, but when it heals is still a question.

Happy Birthday 8寧

2009-11-02T22:58:00.003+08:00

My dearest friend, happy birthday to you again.

Thanks for these few days.

And i shall be ok. It hurts but gonna be fine. Just wonder how long to get recovered.

No tears, just pain.

End

2009-10-31T01:10:00.003+08:00

Finally all the things have been settled. The relationship has ended, a year and 4 months duration.

我還是用中文寫好了, 有些東西用英文實在不好表達。1年多，我覺得這段感情還蠻長的。誰提出分手,其實我覺得不太重要吧。感情的東西除了劈腿之外，都是雙方面的事情。我是很難過，第一次覺得心那麼痛，有時在路上會不由自主的掉下眼淚。我終於理解當你真的愛一個人的時候就會那樣的感覺。其實這段感情後，我也學到了不少東西，我自己的問題，要如何跟你愛的人溝通。我現在需要的是時間，我是真的放下了，只是難免還是會有不捨，經過一些能勾起我們回憶的地方，特別令人覺得難過。對不起，我是很容易哭的人，所以之後不要問我為甚麼分手，我想講自然會講。

謝謝很多很多的朋友，我發現facebook其實真的很厲害，我一換relationship status大家就開始問我了，哈。這段時間我真的需要你們，對不起之前把你們忽略了 =p

有人說這段時間如果有另一段新的戀情，或許會恢復得很快。可是這次之後，我有點怕了。付出太多的感情，很怕最後還是會被傷害，因為那真的很痛。

最後，我還是哭了，可是不是因為分手，而是大家給我的留言，很謝謝你們。我知道我會沒事的，只是需要一點時間。

At least I had a sweet memory before. Perhaps it is better for us to be friends again. =)

Welcome back my single life! Another journey of life.

thanks

2009-10-29T01:50:00.002+08:00

Thanks for liwen again, willing to listen to my stories again. Your encouragement does help a lot. But somehow i am the one who makes the decision. We have so much common, probably both of us from girls school, having the common personality of kc girls, ha. Anyway, this is the first time i feel so hurt, really hurt. It was like helpless except for crying. I know what I should do, but the emotional part has conquered the rational part within myself. And i know what is the best for me, but i cant make it. I want to try my best on it to make the changes, i'm not giving up yet, unless you really meant to let go.

Perhaps it was a good lesson for me.

I won't do any silly things. =) life is still on.

Good night

勤能補拙

2009-10-23T17:19:00.002+08:00

Is it really hard work can compensate everything? Or is it just a way to persuade yourself to keep on going? First I have to admit that, I am really kiasu sometimes. I hate failure, that makes me to pause and ponder whenever i make any decisions. I feel so much less confident now. Am i really capable to compete with others in this field? Fine, i will work hard though. It's very unfair for certain things, because they are smarter, from a wealth family. Anyway, i aint that bad too. I have a good family and good friends with me.

I will just work harder and harder again.

My life

2009-10-17T21:18:00.002+08:00

The life that I am having recently is just study, sleep, eating and study again. There are so many things we need to discover and understand. To success in the future, I ought to study hard at the moment and get the basic information well memorized. However, i went for the activities held by the juniors, a so called "camp" for the freshman. Then they have the camp fire, sing and dance together that remind me the past days when we were having camp together =). And i love this song so much.

And the lyrics too

當我們長大的時候，是不是會覺得越來越孤單?
避忌的東西也越來越多
但人總是會成長的讓我們享受成長的樂趣吧

誰也擦不掉我們許小的諾言

22 years old

2009-10-10T23:30:00.006+08:00

Okay, im officially 22 years old now. First of all, thanks for all the greetings. It's really touching and happy that people still remember my birthday, especially for those who i haven't contacted long time ago. Perhaps a short message of "happy birthday! wish you happy all the time" It is very sweet for me. My boy celebrated with me on the previous day of my birthday, and we drank beer, actually i wish he would send a message wishing me happy birthday on that night 12am. However, it didnt happen, ha. A pile of friends celebrated with me at the hostel, and yiling bought me another small cake. It was so so so touching, cause she did remember what i said. I once told her that i was going to buy a cake and eat the whole cake alone during my birthday. Sometimes, girls are more sensitive and caring. But i still couldnt finish it at once XD

chocolate cake! (before)

after, half of it gone

After this, i realized that

i aint lonely at all, at least I have all of you though some of you arent by my side now =)

Difference

2009-09-30T12:27:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you can't blame that we aren't successful or wealthy enough, perhaps we don't actually pay much effort on it. Some people will be so hardworking until they will spend their lunch time hanging around library, searching for the extra information on studies. So they deserve for the success and the ranking too.
I have been acting differently recently too. Or I have just gone back to be myself? Love to stay alone always, and do my things. In the other words, life is getting busier, I have no time for stuff that wasting time. But this has against my theory => nothing is meaningless in the world, as long as you think it is worth for you, then go for it! ha
Seize your time

see you guys soonnn

=)

Jeezzz

2009-09-24T18:53:00.002+08:00

It's a busy semester. Having exam every two weeks. I am feeling stress anyway, but somehow it makes me feel my life is so contented. That makes time passes so fast, means i'm going home soon again. And recently I got this "cold", got infected by my boy =.= I realize that someone would have to take good care on herself, especially when your family is not around you. Because you have to deal with all the problems by your own so be sure that you are healthy always. Never try to rely on anyone, they can't help you all the time. Oh, i miss my family so much >.<

Don't ever simply judge or criticize something. No one is perfect, neither of you. Learn what's appreciation, because no one is deserved for anything.

Belief

2009-09-18T23:57:00.002+08:00

I am not good at words, that makes me have some troubles when communicating with others. I always worry that people don't understand what i said. Sometimes I don't know what i said either ha. Terrible huh.

It has to be learned, lots to learn. I was quite disappointed on something before, it couldnt convince me anymore. Anyway, i realise now, i should stand on my belief. You will gain what you have paid off. Just work harder.

But somehow i am lazy too >.<

PIXAR

2009-09-13T11:16:00.002+08:00

There's a exhibition for PIXAR animation. I guess most of you know what it is. Up, Toy Story, Finding Nemo, incredible and some others are all from Pixar animation. Well, these tickets are actuallt got from my student's parent here. She gave us two tickets (me and my boy) and another 200 bucks for the rental of the device (something which introduces you the displays. I knew very little for arts, but somehow i adore it, ha. The exhibition shows the sketches of the artists by using pencil, carbon, or others painting materials. It's just so so so awesome! I think liwen would definitely love that! ha.

Recall back that night liwen and i talked about arts. Actually it wasnt arts, just about something related to our future. I wonder artists have to be involved in the big production or at least be famous so that they can gain a living? It's just so hard, because art is something which you can't define. There's no border for it.

Complication

2009-09-06T23:37:00.002+08:00

I notice that there are a lot of things, we can't help on them no matter how hard we tried to fix them. It sounds so pathetic. I always tell others to work hard for their dreams. You might not get what you want in the end, but at least you have tried. Anyway, I am kind of, changing my thoughts. Sometimes it is just so tiring. I know life is there, everyone has to face it bravely or toughly. Things are changing all the time, i can barely accustomed to that.

Fine, I dont need any of your pity.

Blue

2009-09-02T19:49:00.004+08:00

I have no idea on the title for this post. Just feeling tired and strengthless these days, still having serious PMS. And I am quite addicted to the tv series => sex and the city. Kindly suggest all the girls to watch this drama, or at least read the novel.
What do you think of friendship? It is quite sad that someone you were very close to, and now both of you are no longer to have a lot of topic to discuss with. Luckily, there are some very good friends still around me, at least mentally there are. Some friends no matter how hard you try, they would never be your good friends. Our thoughts are different. And I noticed that, I love to complain, ha (pathetic =<). I wish the complaints make things better, perhaps. Where there's a complain, there comes the improvements. Things are very unfair sometimes, however you can't help on it. Accept the fact and change it by making effort on it. Of course, i will keep blaming ha (deep inside my heart). And it's annoying huh.
Love to be alone sometimes, spend some time to refresh yourself.

Im feeling so weak, i need improvement. Thanks for everyone supporting and your good words. Anyway, I hate two faces, please don't be faking to me. I will just go by my own.

Bring it on

2009-09-01T22:55:00.001+08:00

Things are so fucked-up.

Questions

2009-08-30T14:23:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we will just ask some silly questions. As if i asked my boy "Do you still in love with me?" "Of course"

Perhaps i intend to get the answer but not the question, ha.

PMS

2009-08-25T23:31:00.001+08:00

I am wondering why i am getting so frustrated easily these days.

PMS perhaps.

The pursuit of happyness

2009-08-25T23:06:00.003+08:00

First of all, i knew the happyness spelt wrongly. Anyway, it is what the movie named. I was quite bored and so i found this movie somewhere in the ppstream. It talks about a guy who has never given up on getting his life, and his son's life. I guess you guys can watch it when you are free. It is quite inspiring, though a bit dramatical. Luckily the ending wasn't that bad.

You got a dream, you got to protect it.

You want something, go get it.

Never give up.

Matters

2009-08-22T01:16:00.002+08:00

It has no record today. I spent the whole day playing tabletennis with friends, and have little competitions with people from other schools. It's quite happy to play tabletennis, i know the theory very little. How does the ball rotate and its direction, I have no idea of that. I feel happy and relax when playing it, that's all.

Sometimes there are so many things happen around us. People change, things change, building gone and so all. Do you notice all of these? Have you ever thought of what you really want in your life? How do you define success? Becoming a person to be respected or well-known enough to get everyone knows how extraordinary you are?

Think about it, what's really important in your life. Or it doesn't really matter to you at all.

Tomato pork porridge

2009-08-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

Another day spent the whole day in my room. Watching movie and reading books. I dont really feel like going out because it's quite hot outside, the most important thing is, staying in hostel doesnt need to spend any money, ha. Yi ling "invented" the new recipe, tomato pork porridge. The ingredients are brown rice, tomatoes and pork slices. It's

quite nice and healthy too, not oily at all.

It's 1237 today, slightly faster =) but it's really exhausting.

Gone

2009-08-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

It's 1254 today. Sigh, im getting slower and slower. Is there something that bothering me? Or im getting old as my stamina gets weaker?

Sunset looks so nice, captured this picture around my school. Appreciate everything you have now. Perhaps someday you will just lose everything.

Can't really see where's the sun, ha.

Thought going for the volunteer for natural disaster happened last week near the south part of Taiwan. Nevermind, it is cancelled though. Another plan for tomorrow and the coming days.

I'm all alone now, who really cares.

Slower

2009-08-19T01:23:00.000+08:00

It's 1248 today.

End

Earthquake

2009-08-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

Around 8am, there is a earthquake. I felt it actually and i thought somebody was shaking my bed. So i ignore it and slept again. Ha

It's 1247 today, hopefully can be faster tomorrow.

Anyway, it's a busy day for tonight. I'm wondering whether going for the community service these days, since he's going for training soon, and i will have nothing to do again. I have no money, so I can't donate much too. Hopefully i can do something for them, besides of blessing.

Thanks for those who helped me before, wish i can do the same thing to others too.

High School Musical 3

2009-08-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

I spent my day watching high school musical 3 this afternoon. You know (imitate those Americans), I just love it. It talks about everyone is going to graduate and have their own future, just like 4 years ago, ha. I know some of them don't like this show because it's too American or dramatical. However, it reminds me the memories in high school, the moment when we were going to be separated, seizing our own dreams. I missed the last year in high school, i was quite like, regretting on not staying one month more at there, ha. Anyway, i miss all of you and the life we had been through. Don't hesitate with anything, and remember to be yourself.

Be who you are and don't bother on what others think of you.

Stay tough everyone.

The girls are back XD.

BEAUTY AND BRAINS IN AH HOURGLASS

2009-08-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

This article I got it from Reader's Digest (Feb2008) which i would like to share with you guys.

Scarlett Johansson's figure is an asset more ways than one. US research has found women with hourglass figures are more likely to be intelligent and to have brighter children, too. After examining data from 16,000 women and their children, researches from the universities of Pittsburgh and California concluded that women with shapely hips and thighs scored higher on intelligence tests than women with more linear figures. Long-chain polyunsaturated fatty acids such as DHA, necessary for brain growth, are stored around the hips and thighs; the researches believe carrying a little extra in these areas may be a good thing. "Women with small tummies and big hips and thighs have more of what it takes to build brains, and thus tend to be smarter and have smarter children," says study co-author Professor Steven Gaulin from the University of California, Santa Barbara. "This hip and thigh fat is primarily metabolised in the thired trimester of pregnancy and lactation, when babies' brains are being built."

At least I'm feeling much more better after reading this article,ha. Big hips and thighs are always my problems, especially in choosing a jean. It could hardly fit in both my waist and my bottom part, that's why it turns to 30 inches of jeans appear in my wardrobe =.= Okay, it seems like your body figure does not mean everything in your life, those are not gonna last forever. However, I do wish I have a good body figure, which can have me fit in clothes nicely =p.

He's back XD

2009-08-14T19:50:00.000+08:00

Actually i'm quite free these days, just i was lazy to update my blog, and i am addicted with the games in facebook, which i keep teasing my friends before, " boring games", however it turns to me to play it everyday. Anyway, the main point isn't that im addicted on anything, my boy is back hahahaha. Before dating with him today, i have a little nervous, of course i am very happy to meet him and looking forward to seeing him. It has been two months we havent met each other, though we have webcam sometimes, the feeling is different. To feel the warmth of the others, holding hands are so much difference =)

He brought me some souvenirs, like GODIVA CHOCOLATE (expensive here though they are cheap in US) , popcorn (sweetttt) and 2 shirts (S size, just manage to fit it, but i think im gonna to exercise more to fit in them more nicely ha). I also gave him the food that i brought from Malaysia and two tiny starbucks cups. Then he told me alot stories in US, i can feel his excitement and it makes me feel like going there too ha. Anyway, just work hard and you can fly to anywhere later. No guts, no glory. (weird ending again ~~)

Tadaaa~~~very nice chocolate box, i love it very much =p

謝謝你招財郭 <3

Welcome Morakot

2009-08-08T13:09:00.000+08:00

It's just typhoon again, dropped by and visited us yesterday. Anyway it makes no difference for me, as i am on summer break now. So staying in hostel is quite boring. Yi ling made spaghetti for us yesterday, then we listened songs in her room and someone suggesting to watch movie. Around 9.30pm, we were already at cinema near our hostel. At first, we planned to watch "whatever Lola wants" and finally changed to Xmen + Angels and Demons. NTD130 for two movies is quite reasonable. Typhoon is still around, luckily we didnt get blown away. Reaching hostel and continue my HK drama. Sleep aroud 4am.

Okay, the other thing is, have you noticed or felt some of the people around you treat you coldly? They are supposed to be friendly all the time but then suddenly become someone that you don't know well. Probably I did something wrong again which i didnt notice. Noone is perfect right?

Planning to go out again later, it looks a good day outside.

Another new day

2009-08-05T12:35:00.000+08:00

Back to Taiwan for 2 days. I have got to get used to the life here again. The environment, friends, way of communicate and food has changed. Anyway, i think the changes don't have any trouble with me, as I have been staying for around 2 years. Of course, I do have home sick. And I am feeling sick these days, getting sore throat with the blood on the sputum. Somemore I feel hot inside my body. Then i seeked for doctor just now. Luckily it's just a normal throat inflammation, probably due to the weather. Or else, if I got the H1N1, many of you have got to self-quarantine for some time.

here's my medicine
nice doctor, caring service

There are some activities today, not as like yesterday, spending the whole day in my room, watching drama and reading some books. A friend invites me to go for badminton later, with some juniors. Perhaps dinner afterwards, shower and books before sleeping.
I haven't even tidied my place. I just took out all the "daily use items" (i dont know what it called in English, ha) because my parents havent transferred the money to me, and i dare not spend so much money buying things to "rebuild" my place XD.

Last issue, I have been discussing with my bro's girlfriend on their relationship, as some of you have already known it. So i wouldnt mention here again. Talking about marriage, it's a consideration between two families. A couple loving each other so much, but if your parents oppose on it, i dont think you will just disobey what they said. And some of the parents are so conservative, or in another way, they want you to have a better life, asking you to marry someone who can provide you a bright future life. Sigh, but i think all of you know exactly what you are doing and which is the best choice right? Luckily I have my parents support me all the way. And your persistence too, thankyou <3.>

Wish everyone find their beloved ones. And live happily ever after. (ending sounds like the fairy tales)

Flight delayed

2009-08-03T10:15:00.000+08:00

Okay, now im at KLIA starbucks coffee shop. Trapped here. My flight that supposed to be depated on 940am has been delayed to 2pm. This means I have got to wait for 4 hours ALONE. Anyway, the airline gave me a voucher which worth Rm13 as compensation. The staff said we will be reaching around 8pm at Taipei. It's night time and I need to carry a lot luggages alone. I hate that, but I have no choice, ha. And the other thing is, my laptop can only last for 1 hour as I left the malaysia socket/ plug at my house, thought would not be using it.
My big luggage weighed 26.5kg, luckily they didnt charge me for more. The embarrasing thing is, when i went through the checking point (i dont know what it called), I forgot to get my handphone back. I only remember I have lost my phone when i got into the aerotrain. They asked me to show my own picture in the phone to prove that you are the owner. So, please remember to take one or two pictures of your own in case you met such a situation like me today. =.=
I think I will have a movie now, or else I will just die getting bored here.

See you
in Taipei

42 days

2009-08-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

42, my high school id number. The days i spent in malaysia during my summer break. It is late at night now, but i aint tired. This is not the first time i left my home. I will miss you guys, and my family.

Recall back what I have done during these days. Tuition, taking care of babies, shopping, meeting old friends or probably going for a trip. Hope my students really work hard for their studies, of course it is none of my business again after i receiving my payment . Anyway, they are good to me, and i am happy to teach them. My sis and I seek for Cikgu Ong today. He said students' respond are a good way to motivate us in teaching, the learning attitude is very important. I read one of my student blog, she mentioned she is happy to see me again, ha, thankyou student. I am happy to have you guys to be my students.

Friends, happy to see you again. Mamak then talked about the things we had gone through together in the past, it is very fun. Having exams and all other activities together, wearing the ugly school uniforms, tuition together, they are all my precious memories. Do we use precious to describe memories? Okay, anyway, take carez always especially for those who are often sick. Jaga kesihatan kamu semua.

My family, see you again in chinese new year. Please take care of yourselves and I will study hard. No worries for me.

My boy, im seeing you soon. Yeepppee XD

Okay, that's all for this time.

See ya guys in 7 months later. Keep in touch~

by liwen -my well trained photographer-

Fear vs Tiny

2009-07-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

Time heals all wounds.
Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does.

-extracted from novel new moon>

I wonder any of you has this kind of feeling? Feeling lost, worry and fear. Fear of the coming incidents. At least, for now I feel that way. Probably i am going back soon, going back to place, fight for my future, face a lot of problems again. Staying at home is so much difference, less things to be worried. I know I aint alone there, but I feel so much insecure. And I know i have changed, change to someone afraid of everthing, I need to get back my confidence.

I think too much again. Anyway, i am fine. No worries for me.

Moody weekend

2009-07-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

i had a moody weekend. My mc is late again, and what bothering me is my lower abdomen is pain again, it's very annoying. I am going back on next monday, but I have a lot of things havent bought yet. Scarf, bra, pants... are all in my list. But i dont have any money left now, spending lots of money recently, going around buying these and that. Wish I can have money without doing anything, but it is impossible, nothing is free. Sigh.

Went to genting yesterday, update my blog again when i get pictures taken.

Blind date. I dont know what it supposed to be called. My previous student's parent wanted to meet me, then I got my mom to go with me. It has been 2 years i havent met them. She told us a lot about her family. The main point is, she said she worries her eldest son, 25 years old, still single. Though she never says that she's gonna introduce me to her eldest son (in fact my student was her 4th son), we can FEEL it. It's going to be so hilarious if she really make it. My student knew i am in a relationship, i guess she knew it too. If it happens, I AM NOT GOING TO SUCH A DATE.

michellin time~

naked @@

sleeepppyyy >.<

Homemade food

2009-07-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

This is not the first time I cooked by myself. Cooking is actually very fun, when you are free, it's a good activity to spend time on. I think it's time for me to do something special or even more meaningful, that is learning to cook something. I want to cook something which I can make them in my hostel. Absolutely no frying, then i decided to make salad type or more on dessert.

potato egg mix veges salad (processing)

After some decoration...PEMVS is ready for served!!!!ta da....*clap hands pak pak pak

Time for the failure part. This is another dessert? I consider it is.
Banana potato

It looks a bit disgusting and taste bad. I wonder it is my skill or materials mistakes making it taste like shit. Actually the sauce that added on the top suppose to be the strawberry thing, but it is impossible for me to buy a whole bottle of strawberry juice just for the little topping. Besides, i used the raw banana so it is less sweet and harder to make it in the mash form.
Conclusion, it is out of my mistake for the whole process =)

Ban leng leng

2009-07-20T16:52:00.000+08:00

Weekends are even busier than weekdays.
I went for a class, about skin care and guasha. It talks mainly on the Amway product, Artistry. The products are quite good, I haven't used them before. They are good because all are money guaranteed, means you can have your money returned if you are not satisfied with the outcome. I wish to have a set too. As you know, girls must take good care of their skins as wont be getting old easily. So, weychii once you be people's wife, dont forget to do mask often, ha. Anyway, I learnt guasha too, on face. It can lift up your cheek, reduce fine lines and wrinkles (i dont have XD), reduce undereye puffiness and panda eyes (my major problem) and others (too many i couldnt remember all).
This is the first time I used TONER, MOSTURIZER BLAH BLAH BLAH. It's totally different , if you do care on your skin. Before starting any skin care, you got to have those skin care products, means you need money again, sigh. Finally I got a conclusion ,
RICH = BEAUTY
do you agree with me?

After the 6 hours class, then we rush to my hometown, raub. What usually you do in your hometown? Eat, eat and eat also. I ate a lot durians since im back from taiwan, so i'm kinda durian phobia now. Anyway, my aunt made me some of the dumplings.
See..

<------- dumplings THEY ARE VERY VERY NICE

mangoosteen ----->

Never see this in Taiwan before.

Okay, finally, as requested, post up michellin and his brother pictures, ha.

GO haggen dazs

2009-07-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

Haggen Dazs ice-cream is extremely NICE! I just got 2 small tupperware of chocolate and vanilla flavors of HAGGEN DAZS ICECREAM from my student. It's just so so so nice. Then i went to TBR, meeting some of the college friends in the old days. I thought there would be a lot of friends, in fact, four people including me there. It's okay for me since less people means you can talk more with them. 2 friends are still having advance diploma, and the other one is working now. Glad that everyone is having a full plan with their future. The working friend is planning to buy Honda Jazz and asking for our opinions. She is one year younger than me but she has already have the ability to pay for the car loan every month. I think I should think of my future path too, shouldnt I? Set a goal and try to make it within 10 years, that's what the girl told us. Everyone has got to sacrifice something. You can't have all the things with you, I agree with that. Planning is easy but to make it comes true, isn't easy. ha
I wonder what happen to me, 10 years later from now on.

Complicated

2009-07-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

Love, is such a complicated thing, isn't it?
It is hard to meet someone that both loving each other. So, appreciate that if you have got such an opportunity. There are more love complications and friendship problems in High School Musical 2. I would like to share the songs to you guys again, ha. The lyrics in this song is quite meaningful for me, at least. Perhaps changes might be good, it depends on how you handle with it.
Let's watch this video together!

Vanessa Hudgens is cute!!But i prefer her hairstyle in High School Musical1.

Happy ever after.

High School Musical

2009-07-14T11:05:00.000+08:00

Finally I have finished watching High School Musical 1. It's a nice movie, not the plot, but the songs within it.

There are few songs kinda nice in this movie, but this is my favourite one =)

pretty girl she is XD

New

2009-07-13T10:51:00.000+08:00

First of all, welcome everybody for visiting my blog. This is my third blog, and the last blog i have ever wanted to create. Weychii's blog made a great effort on this ha. I love to read her blog because there are a lot of pictures on it and i love the buildings in UK. Okay, back to this topic again, i also want to create a blog full with pictures .

Try to write more in english
perhaps here is the only place allowing me to practise my english writing too =)
There are a lot of things we have to learn.
Stay tough.