最後一次的月子中心

很久沒寫這個部落格了 相隔了快三年，看回以前的願望，實現了不少 1.我考到專科了，名正言順是個麻醉科專科醫師，也拿到心胸麻醉的次專科 2.我一共生了兩個小孩，大的兩歲多，是個漂亮可愛的姊姊，小的才不到一個月，是個俊俏的弟弟 這次的生產，比上次多了很多小插曲，第二胎沒想到竟然住好住滿，滿40週住院催生。打減痛分娩竟然還total spinal，還好母子倆平安無事。 比較多問題的還是弟弟，產前所有的檢查都正常，但沒想到孩子竟然有VSD,而且還0.5公分，對於我這個心胸麻醉科的醫生來說真是諷刺。 既然遇到了還是得面對，雖然剛開始知道這個狀況我還是在月中裡哭了還幾天，怎麼每次住月中都要哭的呢。。。（上次是因為塞奶痛到不行） 我當然知道其實VSD在所有的先天性心臟疾病來說是比較好處理的，而且手術預後都超好，但想到孩子如果之後真的走到手術的地步，小小的身軀插滿一堆管子，還是忍不住又掉淚了。。。事情發生在自己身上的感覺還是不一樣 除了心臟的問題，之後還被告知瓜氨酸血症異常，要重抽血，還好最後複驗是正常的。。。弟弟的臉還長一堆疹子，說是脂漏性皮膚炎，這孩子真的很多事。希望都是如外婆所說的，這孩子的命格身邊很多貴人，都會逢凶化吉。。 人並非那麼衰，在遇到這麼困苦的狀況下，幸虧我爸媽成功來到台灣幫忙我，有種冥冥之中的感覺，不知道是不是上天的安排。。一切都是那麼的剛好，弟弟狀況不適合那麼早就去托嬰，然後我爸媽就來了，來了後，馬來西亞又大爆發了 其實我並非那麼慘，看看別人，我已經是很幸福了，要知足，要感恩 最後，就算高層次已經發現弟弟有心室中隔缺損，我仍然會把他生下來，因為你是我的孩子，我會用盡我全力來守護你 月中，再見了，希望這是最後一次了

Hello 2018~

In year 2017, goals to be accomplished: 1. Manage to New Zealand as a backpacker 2. Finish half marathon in a shorter time 3. To be healthy, wish to pregnant after my CVS course 4. Learn a lot of knowledge during the CVS course 5. Have my own papers/ articles for promoting 6. Buy a new house 7. Read more English books 8. Learn Japanese if possible The above goals 1,2,4,5,6 were accomplished. It is i am become healthier, but still need to work harder for the baby. 今年主要完成的事就是我們買到房子了。花了很多錢、心思，但總算有了自己的一個家。相信以後會更好。 至於跨年還是跟紀家、楊家一起度過，在宜蘭玩了3天2夜，也沒玩甚麼，比較像是一個輕鬆吃喝行程。 2018年，來想想要做的事情: 1. 懷孕生子 2. 好好的當總醫師 3. 準備專科口試的事 4. 學皮拉提斯 ... 加油 2018

The first 30th birthday

Good bye 29th. Hello 30th. Finally it comes to end of my twentieth birthday. I have finally reached 30th, totally another stage of my life. Anyway, i was kinda depressed when i woke up this morning, noticing that i'm officially 30th now! Today is a wonderful day for me. There was a birthday gift laying there when the time i opened my eyes in the morning. My hubby bought a wireless sony branded headset. OMG, so touching!! I left him a message and rushed for work. At hospital, my senior made a pudding and colleague sang birthday song for me. After i left the hospital, my hubby and I celebrated my birthday at home with a bottle of red wine. Then we went for another gathering with his friends. My 30th birthday ends with a Tiramisu flavor cake, which i requested. XD Thank you my dear, for all you did. Birthday wishes: 1) Both of us are healthy and working smoothly 2) Wishing our new house is well renovated on scheduled 3) Hope to get pregnant soon

Hello 2017!

Year 2016 is going to end soon, in 3 hours more. This year has recalled me lots of memories, including happiness, sadness, anger and excitement. Here are the incidents happened: 1. Promoted to R2 successfully? 2. First year happy anniversary 3. Argument with his family, thus we moved out 4. Had a TOEFL ITP test 5. Finished half marathon in 2.5hr There are still lots of things to achieve in the coming year. We both are looking forward to the new life/ new family. Nevertheless, it is kind of stressful if we got into that situation. New house loan, baby...OMG In year 2017, goals to be accomplished: 1. Manage to New Zealand as a backpacker 2. Finish half marathon in a shorter time 3. To be healthy, wish to pregnant after my CVS course 4. Learn a lot of knowledge during the CVS course 5. Have my own papers/ articles for promoting 6. Buy a new house 7. Read more English books 8. Learn Japanese if possible ....so on Finally Happy new year!

My last twentieth birthday . Stay fabulous!

Time really flies. Still remembered that last year, i had had shift at hospital till 10pm. When the time i was home, my husband had totally forgotten my birthday. I was mad and angry at the time... A year has gone. Today, it is my birthday, which is the last twentieth birthday of my life. The next year of today will be my thirtieth birthday. Can't imagine that i am 29 years old now. I have my own career (which just started?) and my new family. The other one who is very important in my life, my hubby. We spent a lovely day today. Simply and intimate, as what he did to me this year. - A card and a dinner, and a pending gift aha - After this, there are much things and goals to be hit. I guess i need to be work harder Love you, my dear, my parents, and my friends happy birthday! stay fabulous!

Here comes the resident life

Starting by tomorrow, i am the resident of anesthesiology and analgesiology department. Everything comes too fast yet too slow. I will record down my feeling whenever there's a turnover in my days. The pressure was so big but still i could manage to sleep and eat normally. This is just a starting point of my journey. There is still a long was to go in my life, and i know that many people are there supporting me. The lack of confidence makes me feel insecure and coward. This is not me!!!! I should grab back my self-confidence by working hard, have improvement on myself. Don't give up yourself, you are not that weak, my dear. A short conversation through phone or pillow talk is encouraging. Keep smile ;)

人生

只能說人生很多事情都無法預測，一切都來得太快了，讓我霎時有點招架不住。 就在2014年最後一天晚上650，他跟我求婚了，之前隨便說說一起去選戒指的..如今他真的做了，沒有花、沒有跪下，只有一隻兔子帶著閃亮紅寶石鑽戒、一句話，嫁給我好嗎，我會好好疼惜你的...我答應了... 不需要華麗的語言、派場，我知道就是這男人了，以後跟我一起共度一生，歇手走完接下來的人生，我真的很幸福，幸福的讓我覺得不可思議，but it is real I DO