End

Finally all the things have been settled. The relationship has ended, a year and 4 months duration.

我還是用中文寫好了, 有些東西用英文實在不好表達。1年多，我覺得這段感情還蠻長的。誰提出分手,其實我覺得不太重要吧。感情的東西除了劈腿之外，都是雙方面的事情。我是很難過，第一次覺得心那麼痛，有時在路上會不由自主的掉下眼淚。我終於理解當你真的愛一個人的時候就會那樣的感覺。其實這段感情後，我也學到了不少東西，我自己的問題，要如何跟你愛的人溝通。我現在需要的是時間，我是真的放下了，只是難免還是會有不捨，經過一些能勾起我們回憶的地方，特別令人覺得難過。對不起，我是很容易哭的人，所以之後不要問我為甚麼分手，我想講自然會講。

謝謝很多很多的朋友，我發現facebook其實真的很厲害，我一換relationship status大家就開始問我了，哈。這段時間我真的需要你們，對不起之前把你們忽略了 =p

有人說這段時間如果有另一段新的戀情，或許會恢復得很快。可是這次之後，我有點怕了。付出太多的感情，很怕最後還是會被傷害，因為那真的很痛。

最後，我還是哭了，可是不是因為分手，而是大家給我的留言，很謝謝你們。我知道我會沒事的，只是需要一點時間。

At least I had a sweet memory before. Perhaps it is better for us to be friends again. =)

Welcome back my single life! Another journey of life.

thanks

Thanks for liwen again, willing to listen to my stories again. Your encouragement does help a lot. But somehow i am the one who makes the decision. We have so much common, probably both of us from girls school, having the common personality of kc girls, ha. Anyway, this is the first time i feel so hurt, really hurt. It was like helpless except for crying. I know what I should do, but the emotional part has conquered the rational part within myself. And i know what is the best for me, but i cant make it. I want to try my best on it to make the changes, i'm not giving up yet, unless you really meant to let go.

Perhaps it was a good lesson for me.

I won't do any silly things. =) life is still on.

Good night

勤能補拙

Is it really hard work can compensate everything? Or is it just a way to persuade yourself to keep on going? First I have to admit that, I am really kiasu sometimes. I hate failure, that makes me to pause and ponder whenever i make any decisions. I feel so much less confident now. Am i really capable to compete with others in this field? Fine, i will work hard though. It's very unfair for certain things, because they are smarter, from a wealth family. Anyway, i aint that bad too. I have a good family and good friends with me.

I will just work harder and harder again.

My life

The life that I am having recently is just study, sleep, eating and study again. There are so many things we need to discover and understand. To success in the future, I ought to study hard at the moment and get the basic information well memorized. However, i went for the activities held by the juniors, a so called "camp" for the freshman. Then they have the camp fire, sing and dance together that remind me the past days when we were having camp together =). And i love this song so much.

And the lyrics too

當我們長大的時候，是不是會覺得越來越孤單?
避忌的東西也越來越多
但人總是會成長的 讓我們享受成長的樂趣吧

誰也擦不掉我們許小的諾言

22 years old

Okay, im officially 22 years old now. First of all, thanks for all the greetings. It's really touching and happy that people still remember my birthday, especially for those who i haven't contacted long time ago. Perhaps a short message of "happy birthday! wish you happy all the time" It is very sweet for me. My boy celebrated with me on the previous day of my birthday, and we drank beer, actually i wish he would send a message wishing me happy birthday on that night 12am. However, it didnt happen, ha. A pile of friends celebrated with me at the hostel, and yiling bought me another small cake. It was so so so touching, cause she did remember what i said. I once told her that i was going to buy a cake and eat the whole cake alone during my birthday. Sometimes, girls are more sensitive and caring. But i still couldnt finish it at once XD

chocolate cake! (before)

after, half of it gone

After this, i realized that

i aint lonely at all, at least I have all of you though some of you arent by my side now =)