useless

Everyone has his own personalities, some you can accept while some you feel unacceptable. I do have my own emotion, which makes me feel frustrated sometimes. I want to have all the things settled in organized. In other words, i wish there would be some tiny little improvement on what i am doing now. No efforts, no success. However, it seems that hardship doesn't always balance with the outcome. I am getting worse in playing tabletennis, it makes me so depressed. Well, allow me to apologize to people around me when i got mad. Sorry that i lost my emotion and shouted at you guys.

Depression does exist and it bothers me somehow. Anyway, i will keep working hard and this is what i should do at the moment.

lonely

Sometimes i feel quite lonely though it seems like i have a lot of friends here. Perhaps it is me trying to avoid from the crowd, and settle everything alone. I think it saves me time, i need to finish all the things scheduled in a short time. I don't have much time to waste by sitting there or hanging around without motive. Consequently, it makes me become more lonely and anti-social. I need some really close friends and family around me to have me recharged. Life is tough and meaningless without you guys...I never feel meaningless for the daily routine repeats everyday in the past days. However, it does happen now. Perhaps i have to take a deep breath and confront every single incident with different thoughts.
Lastly, my english has deproved a alot zzzz, keep forgetting the vocab

Left 44days to go back home! yay!